Welcome to my blog!
My name is Beverly (Bebbers as a few people lovingly call me). I have been married to the same man for 52 years, Jerry is his name. I have 3 children 12 grandchildren and 6 great-grandchildren. I am 69 years young and I am 150 pounds overweight, or their about. Dieting is something I know about because I have done it for so long, you might even say I am a professional dieter. I would be rich if I didn’t spend all my husbands hard-earned money on diets and weight loss schemes. Just kidding, some of that hard-earned money was mine, I did work a few years here and there.
So my question is, why am I fat? I will give you three reasons: 1. I like food, most any food. 2. I am an emotional eater, mostly when things aren’t going to well, and 3. Diets! I hate diets! No really, I hate diets! Okay, I will acknowledge that not all diets are bad, and some people have actually lost a lot of weight on diets and kept it off but, I am not one of them. Diets seem to be an issue with me, I might even say a stronghold (something I have constructed a wall against to protect me). Diets have become my enemy…in a good way and a bad way. Good because I learned the hard way to stay away from diets because they don’t work for me, and bad because it has kept me from doing anything to lose this weight out of fear of gaining more weight if I failed. I have developed a diet mentality and it is a real struggle to get past that when I think of losing weight.
I want to say here that, I don’t blame anyone or anything for where I am at this moment in my life (well, maybe diets, lol). I made choices and I have to live with them. I am where I am today because of the choices I made yesterday. The weight didn’t just jump on me, I alone am responsible for getting as big as I am. I was negative in my talking to myself, I never had anything good to say about me or my circumstances. And the truth is I ate more than I put out in exercise, period. I read a quote from Victory Over The Darkness by Neil T. Anderson “No person can consistently behave in a way that is inconsistent with the way he perceives him/herself to be. I think that says it all.
So here I am to make a lifestyle change. This blog came as a thought that if I got people involved in my journey that I would be more apt to stick with it. I am on a journey to lose weight and at the same time to find the person that got lost in all the diets, fat loss schemes, and the up and downs of living life. I identified with my weight to the point of obsession. I could not get past what I looked like in the mirror. But hey, I am in there somewhere and I intend to find ME.
My original thought was to create a scrapbooking blog but I couldn’t figure out how to do that, (I am hoping I can later after I get this one mastered). I want a blog that not only motivates and encourages me but also helps others that have the same struggles and issues that hinder their own weight loss.
I invite you to join me on my journey and I look forward to making new friends and learning new things along the way.